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Dishu
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Name: Divesh
Birthday: 9/22/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Basketball, Soccer, Football, Hanging out, Its a Grind, enjoying the world around me.
Expertise: Have you seen Hitch?
Occupation: Law
Industry: Law
Message: message me
AIM:  bballinindian
Member Since:
11/5/2003
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| IrrationalThe one thing my heart and mind have in common is how irrational they can be. Irrational thoughts, and irrational emotions.
Sometimes the people closest to you are the ones that don't recognize how hard you go for them. And just them alone. True disappointment.
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| When You Try HardIts when you die hard.
At least thats how Kanye puts it.
Sometimes when you don't care is better then actually caring. If anything I've cared all too much in my life. The problem is when you care about things you can't control. And there are lots of things I can't control.
I am tired...
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| The DisconnectToday has been a frustrating day. I realized awhile ago that I along with many of my other friends are simply NGs. Nice Guys for the unknowing. I have grown tired of it to be honest. It feels like a fruitless attempt to breathe life back into chivalry. Its also frustrating when things fall apart around you, especially the people you spend time with. When you start losing those people how do you fill those gaps? I hate this situation I am in, I feel as if I am playing with another person's cards, which is unfair but thats just how life is. I can't be upset though I mean I am the one who is ultimately deciding to remain in the situation that I am in. It sucks when you try really hard to do things and cheer somebody up but it doesn't really do anything, but they are willing to seem more open with other people it honestly makes you wonder what you did wrong. At the same time you need to take a drink of sobriety and try to understand that person is simply just being honest with you and showing you that they aren't where they want to be, so at the end of the day you just have to put up with the situation. Maybe thats why I am staying up sitting on your bed to show you that I got your back and that I understand that today has been a rough day, and I guess its cool that you don't recognize that since you usually do an amazing job of recognizing me.
What I have come to realize that the best way to live life to be nearly satisifed with every situation is to expect nothing from anybody. Expect to be let down at every turn and that all your individual efforts will be neglected by even the people that are the closest to you. Once you've been let down enough you come to accept that is fact, and that everybody will let you down one way or the other. So if you don't expect anything you can't be let down thus maintaining some level of consistency. Now only if I could take my own damn advice.
Let me know
Do I still got time to grow?
Things ain't always set in stone
That being known let me know
Let me
Seems like street lights glowing
Happen to be just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and
I paid my fares
See I know my destination
But I'm just not there
All the streetlights glowing
Happen to be
Just like moments passing
In front of me
So I hopped in the cab and
I paid my fare
See I know my destination
But I'm just not there
In the streets... In the streets
I'm just not there
In the streets
I'm just not there
Life's just not fair
Seems like street lights glowing
Happen to be just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and
I paid my fares
See I know my destination
But I'm just not there
All the streetlights glowing
Happen to be
Just like moments passing
In front of me
So I hopped in the cab and
I paid my fare
See I know my destination
But I'm just not there
All the streetlights glowing
Happen to be
Just like moments passing
In front of me
So I hopped in the cab and
I paid my fare
See I know my destination
But I'm just not there
In the streets... In the streets
I'm just not there
In the streets
I'm just not there
Life's just not fair
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| Far From Perfect"Imperfection is inherited, therefore we all sin, but fighting the war of sin is the greatest war of all because we all die in the end no matter how hard we fight."
I hate finals week. Long days turn into longer nights where all anybody really wants to do is retain enough information to get them through the next test. As much as I think about it, there is no point in trying to be perfect. Sometimes its hard to even entertain the thought that we were created from some kind of greater being since we are so fucked up to begin with. That being said, I can't bother with trying to be perfect or searching for perfection in other people. You have to find something that is close to what is perfection because to be realistic about the situation, nobody is perfect. I am exhausted of thinking about meticulously thinking through every situation, I mean shit our government doesn't do that and puts us in a fucked up situation so why bother thinking about things with such focus? Sometimes I rather just go with what I feel in my heart, but its become hard to trust that mother fucker. I despise his indecisive nature. Great my hand is falling asleep and my fingers are getting numb. Nothing lasts forever, but I hope it comes close. I really wish I was more patient with everything.
And if I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take
But please don't cry, just know that I have made these songs for you
And if I die before I wake I pray the lord my soul to take
'cuz I'm ready for a funeral
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